Sunday, June 18, 2006

Thirsty for life... 

well, another weekend has passed. i just took a shower and my face is burning for some reason. it's been doing that lately. maybe it's just too much heat and steam.

i have been dying of thirst today for some reason. mayhem is usually the one to drink about a gallon of water a day, but today they couldn't fill my water glass fast enough at dinner. it's insane!

lately i've been struggling on news to share. nothing too interesting has been going on. work hard, go home, be lazy, pay bills, see mayhem on the weekends. nothing much more has happened. i suppose i could share an update on my promises to myself. i have taken more pictures, but haven't gone anywhere exotic for them. generally just pulling out the camera and being obnoxious snapping away pics of loved ones. i've read a little more. i've tried to stretch and meditate before bed, and i've cleaned a few times during the week. i also threw out some older nasty rugs that were too dirty for my new idea of how i should keep my place clean, so i bought new ones. i'd like to think i am counting my blessings more and being a little more laid back. mayhem did seriously piss me off yesterday and if he hadn't been driving, i think i could have smacked him. eventually i let him off the hook, though, so that's a little more laid back.

i guess i've done fairly decently in my first week of these resolutions.

well, i need to gulp down more water in hopes of quenching my thirst. i bet something i ate today had a small salt lick inside it.

oh yes, and to all the dads out there, HAPPY FATHER'S DAY! i should have written a warm and fuzzy post about how wonderful my dad is, but i didn't think about it until now. maybe tomorrow.


Saturday, June 10, 2006

New beginnings... 

one of the bitter truths about life is that there will always be pain and hurt.

but other times make you count your blessings. i want to try to remember to do that more often.

as i'm sure you have all figured out by now, i go through spurts when i get the crazy notion that i'm going to improve myself. this is another of those times. i want to count my blessings. i want to be more active and fit. i want to sleep the right amount of time so i'm not too groggy in the morning. i want to realize that sometimes i can just kick back and take things easy, not take everything so seriously. i want to keep my house cleaner and more organized. i want to live one day at a time, but also plan for the future. i want to enjoy things as they come and savor them in the moment, instead of trying to hold on to it for too long. i want to get rid of old things i don't need anymore. i want to read more. i want to play more. i want to have fun. i want to do more things, make the most of my weekends, have fun with mayhem, play in nature. i want to take more pictures.

i hope this all lasts. i hope i'm not back in the old slump by next weekend. it's a new week, a fresh start.


Tuesday, June 06, 2006

Racing racing... 

life moves pretty fast sometimes. if you don't stop and look around every once and a while, it could pass you by.

seems like life has been flying by lately. absolutely insane. although i realize it seems completely boring on here given my posting frequency lately. and the lack of comments i've had.

turned out that my vacation was excellent. even without the guys planning it extensively, it ended up pretty well. it was sad having to come back, but at least we all got a little getaway.

problem now is that it's so hard to recover from the time off! so much to get done at home but i'm still tired from running the whole time, so i'm not up to it.

in other news, have any of you seen the commercial for KFC and their "shove nasty shit in a bowl" bowl? the first time i saw the commercial, it made me nauseous. nasty crap layered in a bowl with gravy and commercial-grade cheese layered on top of it. it's like a coronary clog in a plastic receptacle. it looks like it was pre-vomited for you from the last person who tried it and found it revolting. i suppose it's pretty economical for them. they only had to make one shit in a cup because after that it's just recycled from one person to the next, perpetually getting puked back up again.

ok, maybe that was a bit too graphic. i guess that's a good thought to leave with all of you as you enjoy your hump day.


Sunday, June 04, 2006

Nothing special... 

i haven't written at all this past week. i'm sorry. i haven't felt up to it. now i feel kind of sick-ish. i have a horrible headache, too. i'm tired. i'm hungry, but i keep eating and it does nothing and now i'm too tired to find anything more to eat.

i don't want tomorrow to be monday already.

there are a lot of crazy big decisions and thoughts swirling around in my head, and i don't know what to do with them. i kind of feel like life is moving forward but also standing still.

at this point, i think i may take a shower and crash for the night.


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