Thursday, June 10, 2004
Achilles heel...
i'm so sick of hitting my head against a brick wall. but i'm going to face ignorant idiots every single day of my life if i decide to be an advocate. i'm going to need some blood pressure medication and yoga classes and tai chi and chai tea all to off set the stress they cause. being passionate can be a downfall. but i'm not easily defeated. and i'm not a crack smoking, oprah watching, welfare queen either. i know that may come as a surprise to some of you. i'm willing to defend them and give them part of my wages despite not being one of them.
the thing i just cannot fathom, though, is how others can be so callous to their fellow human beings. how can you spit on the impoverished and homeless when you've already trampled over them in your rush up the corporate ladder? how can you look at them and not want to help? how can you resent them when you have so much more than them? you have something while they have nothing. be grateful for what you have and stop resenting them for not being born into the same comfortable lifestyle that you have.
i have a love-hate relationship with humankind at times. i love them and think they make life worthwhile most of the time. i want to spend my life helping others. but other times, i cannot help but be ashamed of my fellow human beings. ashamed that they can be so cold, prejudiced, full of hate, and so many other terrible things. it makes me sick.
i will come back with something less dismal once i shake this from my mind.
P.S. Keep them in your prayers.
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