Saturday, July 17, 2004
Maybe this is true...
maybe not. maybe yesterday was a very bizarre day. maybe some of it was good and maybe some of it plunged straight into the toilet. maybe i suddenly had a feeling that i hated all the clothing i owned. maybe i don't like how any of my bras fit anymore (maybe you should be able to figure out why). maybe i had several quick flips in the emotions department and couldn't handle it. maybe last night i drove past a row of several nice and fairly new hotels. maybe i have never before felt such an urge to pull into one and just spend a day away from my own life. maybe i kept going past them anyway. maybe at two points in the day i didn't feel so loved, and maybe eventually by the end of the night i was reminded that i was, in fact, loved. maybe i finally saw the movie i have been wanting to see for about a month now. maybe it was better and a little different than i had expected. maybe it made me want to find the book and read it. maybe the future is still stressing me out. maybe so much of the future is so contingent on the present that it's driving me nuts. maybe it's also that some of my future hangs on the actions of somebody else. maybe i haven't been entirely happy with myself either because i feel like i've gotten really lazy. maybe i haven't been very good about taking care of things on the to-do list or taking care of myself. maybe i need to finish this up and try to do some of that.
P.S. Keep them in your prayers.
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