Tuesday, August 24, 2004
Super fast...
sorry guys, this has to be another really quick post. first day of classes. full day of course. first day of the internship tomorrow. have to get up early and drive through morning rush hour to the nearest major city. oh what fun. and i'm scared, intimidated, nervous, overwhelmed, and any other feeling you can have about a new job. except i'm pretty sure that i'm fully unqualified for what they'll expect me to do. i really shouldn't be trusted with much beyond writing appointments into a calendar. i can master the phone after a couple months maybe. but of course my responsibilities will extend far beyond that. i may have peoples' lives in my hands. and i'm seriously not saying this so that you people reassure me that i am fully qualified and will do well. people have already told me that. i know they're lying. it's not true. i front well. that's about it. i can act nice and confident and smile. so people think i'm capable. but i'm not. ok, let's hope after the first day these feelings are lessened and not heightened. hopefully i'll get in there and a wave of calm will hit me and i'll feel like i can do it. in all actuality, i haven't been able to get too nervous about it with everything else that's happened in my life lately. so it's just kind of like "ok here's another thing to tackle. let's get this over with." so maybe that's good. ok, this was supposed to be short and i've just rambled. so blah. updates tomorrow.
P.S. Keep them in your prayers.
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