Monday, October 25, 2004
In a funk...
i need to get out of town. it is again time for me to consider ditching my life. sure, on paper it looks good. but i'm not very happy right now. i have sucky ass classes where i want to tear my hair out, i have a job where i look forward to the hot coffee pot and nothing much more, i have a supervisor who apparently still thinks that i am the fumbling incompetent person i was on the first day, i have a rocky relationship with a guy i still love and used to trust much more than i feel like i do right now, i have an apartment that always needs to be cleaned, and i have boxes that still need to be unpacked. this all makes me want to cry and hug somebody who cares. ah yes, but i live alone. and mayhem has a half dozen projects due this week, so he dropped by to watch a movie and ran again. it was nice to have that, but i didn't even start to feel any better before he had to go again. i did get a hug and all, but i needed to get over the hump and into a better feel-good place. i needed to get through it and cuddle for awhile to feel better again. oh well... life is tough sometimes. time goes on just as always, whether you want it to or not. ok, enough feeling sorry for myself in public. i'll go curl up on the couch by myself.
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