Vortexia's Secret

OH MY GOD! sometimes it can be soooooooooo fucking frustrating to have a reasonable conversation with the boy. you know how they say that after so long couples develop their own language for talking with each other where they can understand whatever? yeah, i don't buy it. well, i take that back. i think that once you've known somebody for a little while, you can get pretty good at mentioning something in a way where they understand but others don't, or where you can be on the same wavelength with each other and "get it" even if you can't quite articulate it. i have several friends where we can do this. and in my experience, girls are WAY better at it than guys. it tends to go over the heads of most guys. but anyway.... at times even the best couple talkers have a complete break down.

mayhem is already one of those guys who tends to miss the subtleties and force you to say whatever it is outright. that can be pretty embarrassing if you were trying to covertly hint that you're sick of whatever awkward social situation and ready to leave and he asks until you have to say it bluntly. but anyway.... so today we had a complete and utter break down of communication. he asked me how to dump the cookies on internet explorer. so i told him and then asked why he was the one getting the degree in computers and yet i was the one who knew everything. he said that i really should try to get a job in the computer field because any geeky guy i interviewed with would hire me if i went in showing a little cleavage. now i was already kind of mad about that because it made it sound like i would qualify only based on my looks and not on my knowledge and intelligence. but i know he was trying to say it as a compliment, so i let it go. then it came down to the real answer... since i didn't have a degree with computers and am sick of school enough that i don't want to go for another degree just because i changed my mind, i wouldn't be able to qualify for anything beyond tech support with the idiots who can't figure out how to turn on their computer during a power outage. i admire the people who have enough patience to deal with those people, but i couldn't do it. not to mention that i get frustrated enough with them when i call with a valid problem. yes, the power is on, yes i have an internet connection, yes it is attached to the modem, yes i have service through your company, no i am not an idiot, etc etc. yeesh.

so that's a no for me. no i won't be taking a computer job unless anybody else knows of a better option for that. i can do web design enough to please myself and impress mayhem (since i tend to have to fix his web designs... yet he'll be the one doing it for a living. oh yay.) but i don't know enough of the web design and graphic design work to do truly impressive professional sites. although i might be able to do the lower level sites of people who need a cheaper option. you know like churches and non-profits that tend to have awkward layouts. hmmm.

but anyway... the conversation came to a screeching halt when i tried to inquire as to what kind of job he could get straight out of college. the job that will probably support him as he ventures out on his own and budgets a couple rings and a honeymoon. the job that will probably still be supporting the two of us as newlyweds. he said "tech support." so i asked if he meant the kind that people could get straight out of high school? he said no, that now they typically required a college degree. ok, so you mean the type that anybody calls if they bought their computer from that company but then realized that they didn't know how to turn it on. and that's about where it died. he kept making it sound like that was the job. but then would say something about it being corporate and being synonymous with network administrators. and not the kind that's being shipped out to india. and so i asked several times for clarification as to which type of tech support because i knew damn well that network administrator positions were with a corporation and worked with the server, the network, anti-virus control, as well as fixing the computers of the people who worked at the same company as you. so he said that he would be working for a company. well no shit, you won't be doing it on your own from your house and asking people to mail donations. either one is with a company. so there was much frustration and yelling and concern about our future financial status and the worth of his degree if he could only qualify for the job where you didn't even need a degree but spent so many years trying to get it. finally, we both concluded that it was the network administrator position with a corporation and helping maintain the servers, network, and also fixing the computers of coworkers who downloaded a virus when they thought they were getting to see anna kournikova naked. after that i just said i'd talk to him later because i didn't think we could handle another discussion and more confusion. hopefully when we talk again we'll be able to understand each other again. sheesh!