Vortexia's Secret

which pill do men love more? viagra or birth control? i mean, one promises performance into the golden years, but the other ensures more regular sex without the fear of a dozen kids roaming around. just something to ponder.

so i haven't written in a couple days. it's strange. i actually checked the blog and email quickly on my parents' computer, but shortly afterward they decided to run a deep system scan. damn it figures. i think i got everything erased prior to that, but i can't be positive.

i think i've decided to go back to implementing more of my beliefs. try to get more organic and fair trade foods, rather than just the cheapest thing. not patronize the big chains like starbucks and walmart. that kind of thing. of course i'm actually doing one better most of the time. i so rarely shop at all these days (think too poor to shop), so i don't have too many problems with that really. although i was craving coffee the other day and the only barrier that prevented me from getting starbucks was my attitude that it was too cold outside to bother leaving the warm nest i created just for some overpriced coffee. i also want to eat better. my staple snack is anything sugary. that's just not good for you. yesterday alone i swear i must have read 3 different things saying the biggest thing you can do for your health is to cut sugars. i'm not into dieting and never want to be, but i do think i should should stock some alternatives to my sugars. like veggies and stuff. and sugary stuff that at least is a little more healthy. like with other spices in it or something.

i asked mayhem yesterday if he would be interested in just trying a liberal lifestyle for a week. i honestly think many people would find it kind of fun and uplifting. i mean, the conservatives would get to take the baseball bat out of their asses. all of them could cuss out the major retailers and exude love for those that they previously didn't love. they could purchase hemp products (and let's face it: you won't find any lotion that makes your skin softer than the hemp lotions). you can have a cause that you care about and forget about your stock portfolio for a week. or even better, you can examine the businesses in which you invest and see if they are globally friendly, green friendly, sweatshop free, all that good stuff. socially responsible investments. it's the hip thing, you know. for those of you who actually own shares and have stock brokers and all. so anyway, i will let you know if i can convince mayhem to try being liberal for a week. i'm guessing no, but you can never tell. he thought i meant politically liberal, and i said that wasn't it at all. i would give him a break from the political debates for a little while. but that i meant liberal in his life and beliefs. he respects me so much for all of my beliefs, so it always puzzles me that he doesn't care to implement any in his life.

ok, so you're probably wondering what i've been up to. i left work early on wednesday because i realized i had no desire to work. my supervisor took the day off and i didn't have anything that needed to get done that day, so i just worked till lunchtime and headed out. yesterday i ate 2 thanksgiving dinners. yum! mayhem's mom also let me know that i was family, which was a HUGE blessing! i waver back and forth on whether or not she likes me, so i figured this was a big thumbs up. and his grandmother mentioned "when you two get married," so i take that as another blessing. now all that stands before us are a couple full-time jobs, a ring, a couple diplomas, a couple paychecks' worth of money, some house-hunting, a location, a date, and a minister. the rest are just the little details. oh yes, and there was an engagement in our family this weekend. but not me. so i'll have another wedding to attend mid-2005. another out-of-stater. sadly, i will have to be entirely financially independent at that time, so it will be my careful budgeting and requesting time off from a new job to get there. whee, i'm feeling adulthood creeping up on me already. right now i just kind of play adult.

i've watched a couple movies already this weekend. both were good. i'm watching at least one more tonight. it's really been pretty nice. i get the feeling of a vacation even though i still have this paper to finish. i do bits and pieces here and there so it's not too unbearable.

the rest of the weekend is kind of a mystery. i'm going out to eat with the family at some point. i'm going to try to see mayhem's family once more since i haven't seen them in months prior to last night. i think we're going to get a christmas tree. i'll have to finish my paper. i may take some of my decorative stuff back to the apartment. or i may keep it at my parents' house even longer. i'm not sure. mayhem has a to do list at the apartment and with my car, and i can't say we've made progress on either. but now his mom knows about some of it. she wants him to help me caulk and weatherstrip before it becomes a monstrous problem. so we'll see. it's been a wonderful, happy weekend so far! hope yours has been too. and happy late thanksgiving!! hugs!