Monday, November 22, 2004
Today...
i cannot force my damn mind to focus. i have a ton of freaking work to do, and i needed to finish a paper this weekend and what have i gotten done? a page and a half. of 20. fuck. i hate myself for not being able to focus. and yet, i still can't force myself to do it. and this paper is like a black hole. i'm supposed to write and research a topic that was discussed by my prof and approved by him, and yet it turns out there's no research on it. so do i just scrap all hope of using research and shoot from the hip? or do i take little pieces of research out of context and use it to then write a paragraph's worth of info and cite that other person to make it seem more than just fabrication? and my internet cable keeps working itself loose. so i lose internet every couple minutes. i need a vacation desperately. and i get one next week. but i'll have to finish this damn paper. so here's the deal. i may have to intentionally unplug the internet and create a fun void so i can write for another couple hours before bed. i'll hate myself for it, but i'll hate myself if i don't. so goodbye internet. goodbye internet distractions. goodbye procrastination. you are my closest friends during this time of required work. but i have to go into the deep dark abyss of productivity on my own. armed only with my cheap ideas and a few tawdry pieces of research. farewell dear friends. if i never return, you may divide up my internet fame and burn the research that killed me. then scatter its remains on the feet of the protectors of higher education as a sacrifice and testament to my attempts to achieve more knowledge.
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