Vortexia's Secret

here's a little 2 item wishlist.

i wish for itunes songs. i just downloaded itunes, but i think i am going to restrain myself from getting an account with the itunes store and downloading songs until i have a job. since there's no money coming in, i haven't bought music in at least a couple years probably. it's very very sad. especially since i love it so much. but when it comes right down to it, music is expensive and expendable. it's a luxury. one i love, but do not need. food is also expensive, but i need it. so i had to make a choice, and i've done pretty good about sticking to it. from time to time mayhem will burn a CD for me, either because he's being sweet or because i hear something i have to have and beg him to hunt it down. he doesn't have much expendable income either, but he already does the music thing anyway, so the occassional gift for the girlfriend isn't an extreme expense to him. but anyway.... i know a lot of you have itunes. i know a lot of you love music. so if anybody feels like being generous and emailing or IMing any music to me, then i would love it. i certainly don't want this to feel like an obligation or a one-sided agreement, so i'm leaving it completely up to you guys. if i never get an email, that's just fine. if i get 50 then that's just fine, too. you guys paid money (probably) for the copy you got, so if you want to keep it all for yourself, i can't blame you. it's just an idea that i'm throwing out there in case anybody feels so inclined.

my other wish is for the holiday season to kick into high gear. i'm ready to be done with school and start the fun stuff.... decorating a christmas tree, cooking all kinds of fantastically delicious goodies, eating good meals like thanksgiving and christmas, seeing family and relatives, walking into a house that smells like evergreen and spices and everything nice. getting to decorate my apartment and maybe even having my first christmas tree of my very own (which may not happen because i'll be gone most of the holiday season, but i might have to get a little tree anyway). i love love LOVE the holiday season and this year i can already smell the excitement building in the air! at the same time i know this holiday season won't be the same. i'm not having thanksgiving with the usual people, i'm not going to be in town, i'm not really going to be doing what i want to do, i won't even be someplace cold, but my parents signed me up for it without checking with me. christmas won't be the same either. with my mentor gone and mayhem's plans in the air, i won't have the normal christmas either. we used to get to spend thanksgiving with my family and then mayhem's and it was wonderful. mayhem used to get to come with us for christmas and be like part of the family. but not this year for either. it really really sucks. so why am i excited about the season approaching?? i have absolutely no idea. *sigh* here's to a change of plans and things working out better than expected.