Friday, February 11, 2005
Blahs...
the last couple of days have felt like blah. and yesterday i felt like blah. i was a little afraid that i might be getting sick. i felt fine, none of that creeping illness feeling, but i was freezing all day. so i was worried that i had a fever and the grossness would hit me momentarily. i'm ok though. i just feel, i don't know.
sometimes i wonder what a therapist would tell me about my relationship with mayhem. you know, if they would take one look at it, at us, and say "abort! get out while you still can!" or if they would see what we see that has convinced us to stick with it through all the bad. i wrote something about our relationship last night and saved it just for myself. i thought about sending it to mayhem, and i still might, but so far i'm not. basically, the kicker is that despite all the issues and problems we may have and all the frustrations that they cause, he is still who i turn to when the going gets tough. well, unless it's tough because of him, and then i stand on my own.
anyway, i don't know where i'm going with any of this. i guess i just kind of feel in a funk.
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