Vortexia's Secret

two things, a question and a commentary:
1) can i be bitchy? i have never really considered myself to be bitchy, but i know from time to time that i can think some bitchy thoughts when somebody pushes my buttons. i generally keep them to myself, but i'm sure i've slipped before. just curious if anybody thinks it's crossed the line.

2) so i have wondered off and on if mayhem had a little crush on the chick (friend's girlfriend) who hates me. now that she has revealed herself as a bitch extraordinaire and a V-hater, i don't think he likes her... in fact, he tends to bitch about her and is rooting for a break up. he may be a little jealous that she's the type who spends her days barefoot and cooking as the kitchen bitch for her boyfriend and his roommate. that will never happen with me, and for the most part he doesn't want me to be that way, but i wonder if a little part of him would like to come home to me whipping up something in the kitchen just because he's the man of the house. if he really wanted or expected that he would not be with me and knows it, which is why i say it's a tiny bit of jealousy. but anyway.... mayhem is the one who brought her into all of our lives, unfortunately. when he first met her, he was very excited and thought she was cute and fun to talk with. he talked through a seminar with her and immediately talked about needing to set her up with one of our guy friends because she was worthy. of course, then came the 180, the hatred, the bitching, the incessant fighting with her boy, lies about me, avoiding me, unofficially living in anybody else's house but her own, and even giving mayhem and the boyfriend's roommate shit for whatever just because she was feeling moody. i knew that mayhem didn't have a crush on her currently and even disliked her and all the shit and drama she caused, but i was just curious about when he first met her. he swore up and down that he never had a crush on her, but the signs pointed elsewhere. i don't care, but i am a little curious if he is just embarrassed to have had a crush on her or if he truly didn't. thoughts or guesses on the matter are welcome...