Vortexia's Secret

first thing's first.... mayhem's description of the day: i'm "sexy as fuck."

ok, a couple things... the less important things first.

why does it seem that religious girls want religiously-apathetic boys, and then try to change them? no wonder religious boys are so frustrated. i know several boys who never went to church from their own will who have been basically whipped into submission by religious girls. and even odder are the atypical religious girls. like girls who have sex with several boyfriends and then say their religious beliefs dictate that they can't live together for any period of time before marriage (or pay rent for their place but live at the boyfriend's 5 of the 7 days of the week, but still claim it's not living together). or who are sex freaks AND jesus freaks. but either way, the guys seem to crumble to their knees with these girls easier than any other. it just kind of seems odd to me considering how big a deal religion tends to be for people.

on a related note, for the people who won't take God's name in vain and consider saying it other than in prayer taking it in vain, what do they scream during sex? if they can't say "oh God," then what? do they just say the other person's name the whole time? they can't really say "oh fuck," "hell yeah," or anything else either. anyway, that is just something i've wondered about.

now the real issue that has bothered me...
so i discovered this past week that one of mayhem's best friends thinks that mayhem isn't good enough for me. apparently he's thought that for quite some time now, and he's told everyone but the two of us. somebody slipped and mentioned it to me last week, and it has definitely bothered me. besides all the crappy friend factors that are raised, i can't help but wonder... is there some validity in his belief, or is it that he actually wishes he had me? i could see him going off on how mayhem isn't good enough for me with the underlying factor being that mayhem isn't him; therefore, mayhem isn't good enough. or maybe he sees something i don't? i don't know. anyway, it's been invading my thoughts all week. comments, input, advice, etc are all welcome.

i will hopefully be back for good at the end of the week. this was just a brief internet availability. love you guys! please keep reading... i'm posting any chance i get! xoxo