Vortexia's Secret

no, not what a very small dog feels when it wants to show its affection for a great dane. but i am frustrated nonetheless. things are still left unresolved. i am still having problems getting these issues wrapped up. i have taken time off work, driven all over the place, spent way more days away from home than i had prepared for... basically, i am dealing with a huge pain in the ass.

but in other news... when i let all of that just be and put my mind to other things, i have a fun couple days this weekend. i explored something new and delicious that i had wanted to try for some time. unfortunately, there isn't a place near my own place where i can get it, but at least i now know that i like it, and where i can get it should i decide to drive way the hell out just for a fix. i also got to go to one of the neatest little places in the area near my parents' house (i went home for easter... oh yeah! HAPPY EASTER!) that made me happy. i got to eat some of my favorite ethnic cuisine, thai food.

and mayhem and i had a very long conversation about potential deal breakers. i discovered something very interesting. i never knew that gun ownership was so important to him. boy doesn't have a gun right now. knows i want nothing to do with guns and don't want one in my home. but for some reason it never dawned on him to bring this up before. he's supposed to inherit a couple guns passed from one generation to the next. one is the one his grandfather taught him to shoot with, and another is one from WWII. ok, i can understand sentimentality. goodness knows i can be sentimental. but save a photo or something. grab up one of your grandfather's old coffee mugs or his rocking chair or the pair of long johns that he used to wear when he puttered around in the mornings. i don't care, but why does it have to be the gun? my compromise is this: dismantle the guns, don't own any ammo, put gun locks on the guns in addition to the safeties, then lock them in an encrypted and secure gun safe, then keep the gunsafe in his brother's or best friend's or anybody he trust's garage. he still technically owns it, and i don't have a gun in my home. and i don't have to worry about somebody getting shot with their own gun. plus i honestly think the only time he would ever use one of the guns is if one of those guys asked him to go shoot skeet or practice at a gun range or something. he can keep his paintball gun hidden and locked and dis-assembled in the house if there is no ammo in the house. he said that they would only squirt air if there were no paintballs in them, so he can keep that locked in the house. but even so, it still has to be locked, especially if we ever have kids. i don't really want my kids to get fixated on guns. i hate it when i see little boys with semi-realistic looking toy guns running around and shooting everything in their path. it just seems wrong to me. anyway, that was just a topic of last night. i ended up getting sick to my stomach about it, especially when mayhem couldn't answer 100% that this wouldn't be a deal breaker. he said he needed to think about what he was willing to sacrifice and how much he would compromise on it. which is fine. i would rather him think about it and truly know what he's willing to do or not do. but i think it would be hard for me to come to grips with this relationship ending after so many years simply because he liked the idea of gun ownership. although i had a couple friends who were engaged before the conversation came up, and it was a deal breaker for them. they had to break things off because neither wanted to budge. oh, and i also asked him to think about what other things would be potential deal breakers, since the answers can obviously be surprising!