Vortexia's Secret

i seem to always be more intelligent, insightful, and powerful in the shower. i come up with some pretty incredible stuff in there. whether it be sage advice, burning comebacks, sweet thoughts, or something else, they seem to be truly head and shoulders above the rest when i'm under the shower head. like tonight... for some reason i remembered a post i came across from somebody who was thankfully not one of my usual reads. i immediately felt worse for reading it. like i sensed evil. she was not a good person. she was small, petty, conniving, self-pitying, spiteful, and just not good. and yet she was one of those who built herself up to be better-than-the-rest, christian (fundamentalist conservative of course), truly following the word, and seemed to believe her path to heaven was already clearly paved by her goodness. self-deceptive if i've ever seen it. this one post struck me as so horrific that i remember bouncing it off one of you guys to make sure i wasn't just seeing something that wasn't there. i don't remember who it was, but within 30 seconds the reply came back. that person confirmed it. i seem to remember them saying something along the lines of "she is pure evil. full of hatred and everything she claims to stand against." it really struck me that both of us could assess that so quickly and so strongly from just one simple thing.

anyway, this was months ago, but for some reason i remembered it tonight while showering. i started musing over the comment i never posted because i just wanted to forget it entirely. and it was incredible. i pointed out her irrationality and hypocrisy. i mentioned how she was being small and petty and selfish and was stunting her personal growth by her incredible penchant for self-pity. i even referenced how her actions and thoughts are directly opposed to those lauded in her Good Book and that the ones she criticized were acting out of love and were more in line with God's wishes than was her reaction to them. i was on fire!

it's like i enter the shower and become the best brainiac-professor-lawyerish hybrid i could be. sometimes it also works late at night when i'm already lying in bed and desperately needing those precious hours of sleep. if only i could learn to harness that intelligence during the part of the day when it matters...