Vortexia's Secret

two totally different things. my first thought...

have you guys ever really looked at the people in commercials and even some TV shows and tried to figure out how in the world they made it to TV? i mean, really... i'm sure you have to pay more for pretty people so some just go for mediocre. but some of the people are the kind where you tilt your head to one side trying to figure out why their face looks so funny. thinking about how "elite" people are who call themselves models and actors/actresses, it just surprises me that these people get the jobs. i'm sure there are hundreds of gorgeous starving artist types in california who would gladly take the job. anyway, just a little curiosity there. and just so you know, i'm all for variety and not making everyone picture perfect because it's not realistic. but there are some choices where you can't help but wonder. well that's enough of that.

success... so maybe i'm on a false high right now, but i am feeling much better about things than i was yesterday. i'm feeling some successes. small, yes, but sucesses nonetheless. although i don't want to get too full of myself, i can't help but wonder if some of these positive returns are because of my personality and the attitude i put forth with others. i think i can easily win over people when i meet them, which helps when you need something... like a job or a favor. i guess it's the people person thing. anyway, i don't want to assume that some things are starting to go my way simply because i give a first impression, but it's certainly possible. or maybe God doesn't want me stressing this much. who knows. but either way, i'm just very grateful that things are better today. just as a warning, things may be a little up and down until parts of my life become a little more stable. but having everything in my life up in the air... i think that warrants a little stress outburst every once in a while. anyway, just an update and a little yay for feeling better and making progress.