Vortexia's Secret

so sorry for the absence. internet went out again, then i kept getting internal server error messages from blogger, and then i fled town again. at this very moment i am debating if i go back home today and get everything done that i need to do and feel very good about myself, or if i go to mayhem's and make him happy and kick myself in the ass later because i still have shit to do. stupid decisions.

but right now i can do the easy things. like take a shower and eat. then maybe i'll try to find a good interview outfit. after that has been procured, i will see what time it is and how hideous my to do list still looks. we have a lot of things to get done together, which i would like to do in this city since we are both actually here momentarily. because then at that point i will feel much better about things and he may be able to convince me to come back with him. oh life can be complicated.

so what have i been up to lately? i have finally gotten over my horrendously gross sickness. ok, maybe i'm exaggerating it a tiny bit, but it was definitely not fun and made me feel miserable for close to a week. i have gotten a couple little job leads, if you can even call them something as big as a lead. i have gotten a couple miniscule nibbles that i plan to pursue to see where they may lead. i have had many very bizarre dreams. one involved me shopping at target while i was supposed to be getting married, and i was wearing the full veil and everything. weirdest part was that nobody else seemed to think it was weird, and i never took off the veil to look a little more inconspicuous. i also had other crazy dreams, but i can't remember them anymore. i think in one i was teaching delinquent youth. anyway, weird dreams aplenty around here. oh, and i decided that mayhem and i needed to get started on some premarital planning. which, oddly enough, seems to be in line with other people as well. my dad and a couple other people just recently asked about our relationship and saying they thought this was leading to marriage and just wanted to see if that was what we were thinking, too. so anyway, i guess that's a little synopsis of this absence. have a fabulous weekend! hugs and kisses!!