Wednesday, August 17, 2005
Stress...
the flavor of the week is stress.
crazy frustrating things popping up out of nowhere. unfortunate happenings, scary decisions, budgeting queries, and more. like i said, i don't like growing up. i like it when i can pretend that i'm an adult and do a good job at it, but then i kind of wish i could stop play-time and join my family for dinner before we watch some silly 80s sitcom together. then i shower, hug mommy and daddy, and go to bed.
the thing with growing up, and with life in general, is we never appreciate and enjoy things when they are in the present. it's almost always in the future or in retrospect that we savor them. when we are in the actual moment, it's a little scarier and feels much more unknown. it's not playtime anymore, and it's not a memory about which we can reminisce and say thank you God for helping us navigate that time safely.
it seems like our society is brought up to have trouble with the present. we like the memories of the good old days, we take pictures to enjoy later, and create scrapbooks of our lives. we are trained to look toward the future and to plan ahead. we don't enjoy the present enough. maybe this is part of why the present can start to feel stressful. if you are currently facing tough decisions, you want to slip into the future or the past to get away from it, but the limits of time and space won't allow it.
anyway, this is just a snippet of my thoughts at the moment. i can handle some of the stress better than others, but you take it all moment to moment, and rely on loved ones to help lift you up or let you vent or whatever you need. the ups and downs of it all...
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