Vortexia's Secret

oh my goodness i have been gone for way too long. lost. MIA. kidnapped. abandoned. so sorry.

i don't even really know what i've been doing. i've been a little better about eating well. i've decided to try meditating. i'm trying to be better about not starting stupid fights. i can't call mayhem tonight because his phone can't accept any calls. that really sucks because i only started my resolution about not starting stupid fights AFTER starting a stupid fight with mayhem last night. he came over to help me out, but he took too long to agree with me about something, so i started calling him a jerk. just playfully, but i was play-pouting when he left. i tried calling him back to make sure he knew i was just kidding when i discovered his phone couldn't accept calls until he fixed it. those damn people who say stuff about not having regrets... great idea, but you have to be a good person all the time to pull that off. here i thought i was kidding, but then i still got this nagging feeling about it.

i'm starting to feel a little more generous now. i tend to feel stingy or selfish sometimes, but i had a moment today when a colleague had something similar to what i had. i was willing to donate my item for a good cause and the other employee was very excited about keeping her item. i'm generally the one who feels guilted into donating something. but i was more excited about being generous. i'm turning over a new leaf.

as i write, i'm realizing my basic goal is to live the best life possible and be the best person i can, in every sense of the concept. i am trying to eat well, work out, have good karma, yadda yadda. guess that about sums it all up.

so once again, i'm back to asking what you guys would like to hear about from me. are you ready for me to just shut up and go quietly into the sunset? would you rather hear about certain aspects of my life over others? since i've had such a break in posting, i'm certainly interested in hearing what the remaining vocal readers would like to read from me. thanks in advance and lotsa love people!